This week sucked. I’m serious, I just felt so bad, this week. I’m really doing crap for most of the things. I’ve really go to improve. I’ve got to push on. I’ve got to go back to all those that I missed out on, and tend to those things. No matter how insignificant and unimportant things might have appeared then, I’ve realized that its my job now to go back and change everything.
Looking back on my life, I realize that I haven’t accomplished much. I’m just a normal student, just like everyone else, studying, playing and enjoying myself. This is what practically everyone does. What have I done that is special? I’m just a normal person, just like everyone in society, getting judged by everything that is a part of me. There are 7 billion people in this world, trying to fit in.(All Around The World reference) And I’m just one of them, trying to survive through the thing that’s called, life. And I live in Singapore, a country that is so successful, in so many areas. And I make up one of the 5 million people residing here. I haven’t done anything extraordinary, I haven’t even done anything. i haven’t even contributed in any way. I’m just ANOTHER student. Or maybe, just another resident, in the bigger picture. I’m just a resident of the world, and I’m already struggling. Struggling with so much work. Struggling with so much commitments. Maybe, then, it wasn’t that important a thing, but now, I realized that I’m going nowhere. I’ve to become a better person.
So what spurred this change? There were a lot of things that happened this week, but I what I really want to talk about, is, what happened today. The Cricket season started today. It was a new season and I really wanted to do my best. Do my best and improve the coach. The coaches were a new this time around, and I felt that this was my chance to show them what I was made of. I started training with my brother before the training itself and we started off by throwing some balls to each other. The coaches were watching us and they didn’t say anything. Maybe they were impressed, maybe they weren't. They seemed really encouraging though, throwing back the ball whenever, my ball spun too much or simply put, just went off-target. After that we did some batting drills by ourselves. After a while, the training session begun.
We started off with some throwing drills, unusually and what was the most interesting part was that the drill was the same thing as the one that my brother and I were doing. We got into pairs and I partnered my brother as usual. We were throwing the balls to each other and one of the coaches, came over to me and corrected me. He told me that my technique was a little off and taught me how to do it better. He encouraged me and told me that I could do it. That left a lasting impression on me.
Next, we had some goalkeeper practice. There were two cones, on either side of a designated area and we had to move and dive to prevent the balls from crossing the line.The coach split us into four groups at first, but later, before we had even begun, he told me, that I had potential and transferred me to another group with better people. I dived and twisted and turned and did my best to stop the balls from passing by me. He commended my effort and told me that I could have just jumped to my side to stop some of the balls.
There was some throwing practice after, and one of the coaches and the main coach corrected my technique and encouraged me on to hit the middle stump. The balls went really close according to them, and they told me not to give up hope. In the end, I didn’t even hit it at all.
Then, the last part of the training session. The guys came along and asked me whether I would want to pair with them but I rejected them politely. My brothers was much more important. I fielded a few balls and was left to rue a few missed chances where we could have got the batsmen out. Then it was my brother’s and my turn to bowl and bat. I played as the wicketkeeper for a while, and the coach cheered me on though I evidently had lost touch with the position and let a few balls go past me.
Then I had to bowl. The coach told me that my balls were going a little off and told me to pitch it a little to the right side. He even told me that changing my side would be a better option. I did so and got a wide in six balls. Not bad eh? haha:)
It was my turn to bat with my brother soon after. I was batting feel at first and didn’t hit a few wides. I attempted to hit the last ball though and almost got out. Phew, that was close. I was quite disappointed that I hadn’t hit that many balls at first but later after hearing my team’s score, was quite contented with myself.
And then, I had to field again. This was the frustrating part. There were just so many chances for me to get the coach out, and I didn't. It was really painful for me. I wanted to do better. I wanted to just become a better player and prove myself and I didn't. I wanted to do some extra work and back-up the keeper and in the end, didn’t do that well. The first few balls didn’t reach me and for the others, I was just plain slow. I walked away, dejected after the training. I could have done much better. I had already had a year of cricket training and I still couldn’t do this? Disappointing. Really, disappointing.
I’m not trying to brag or anything. This is honestly how I feel.
And the incident that happened last week is still fresh in my mind. It was really demoralizing. Maybe, it was interpreted all wrongly. But…but..couldn’t it have been the other?
Why? Just why? Why did it have to turn out this way?
No, even thinking about doing that is stupid. Thank You for helping me realize my mistake. Thank You.
I have only one thing to say about this-
People change.
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