Motivation.

Life sucks. My life so far this year hasn't been spectacular, hasn't been fun, hasn't been anything. It's just like nothing happened since last year. But no, to be honest, many things have changed, both for the better and worse. Sometimes, its just hard to find motivation to go on, just hard to find motivation to just do the things that you love to do. Sometimes, its just so hard, to get down to do work for example, and even if I do, I feel that my 100% is not going into it at all. I just feel kind of robotic sometimes, where you just do things for the sake of it, with no feelings. The past just feels so much better, but I guess thinking about such stuff is not gonna help at all.

All our lives or at least my life, are like cactuses. One in a desert, deprived of water, but one that at the end of the day still manages to survive somehow. The water is like motivation in my case. Sometimes, there's no water at all, but you've got to keep going. You've got to keep pushing on, surviving. At some point in time, it may feel like you're not living life anymore, but just surviving through it, but that's just life. You've just got to get whatever you need or want from wherever you can and live with it. But sometimes, I just imagine that someone called me "weak" and that I couldn't make it. This really makes me feel knocked down. But, it just makes me feel a little "stronger". It makes me just stand back up, much taller than before. But sometimes, this is just simply not enough.

But there are other sources of motivation around like friends, my own self-motivation (which is very little) and my passion. To be honest, I owe quite a bit to my friends. They've made my journey to where I am very smooth and they are great pillars of support. They are always there for you and ready to lend a helping hand. Plus, they are also like family sometimes. But to not forget the family that I was born in, I think they have also given me a great deal of support. They are just so cheerful most of the time and life wouldn't also be the same without friends and them. I really appreciate being born into such a family where if one member is upset, the rest would notice immediately and try to cheer up that person. Something like what we do for each other as one-ders. These things keep me going. But not forgetting my passion, football. I think I'll make this part a little longer cos' I don't think I have talked about this before. Sometimes, things just seem better and its easier to forget about stuff, with a kick of the ball. It's like kicking your worries away and it really makes it easier to smile. It makes it easier to live life and enjoy yourself. Even though I'm not that good a football player, the joy that comes when you do a skill is just amazing. The feeling when the ball catches the net, when the ball goes in off the crossbar, is just sensational. Just doing all these without feeling any fatigue at all is remarkable and I'm really thankful for this beautiful game. It plays an important part in my life and without it, I really don't think I would have made it this far. It just makes you have a clear mind and be more positive. I love you, football.

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Change

I really thought that I should really blog after not doing so for kinda long. To be honest, this has actually got to be the worst time to be doing so with all the tests coming up on assessment week and all but let’s go.

Firstly, it has really been a great jump from JH2 to JH3 life with all of those new stuff that we have to learn. Plus, since I’m in Triple Science, the sciences have been divided into their components and although, it make some stuff clearer as its easier to relate it back to the type of Science that it is part of, it really makes it harder for revision and all and it is much harder to stuff all those things into my brain in a short period of time. Things have also have been much harder to understand in class and I realized that I have to work super duper hard to survive this year and the subsequent years. To be honest, I really miss the or carefree years in JH1 and JH2. Plus, boarding is also gonna lose more of its fun element as a result too. Damn, guess this is how life goes. But then, guess this will make me more focussed on work and less distracted on other stuff.

Secondly, football. I know I haven’t blogged too much about football but I’ve got to say that nevertheless, its an integral part of my life. Without that sport, surviving would be tough. Without Liverpool, life would be so much more dull, life would be horrible. But, even finding time to play football is tough and its just painful to watch day after day pass by with me not kicking a soccer ball around and strike it into the back of the net if possible, just to hear the sound of the contact between the shoe and the ball. But I guess that life still goes on. If only one day there would be some time for that, that would be great, not just great, perfect. This sport kept me going and it still keeps me going. Plus, Liverpool’s performances have been amazing this season and kudos to Brendan Rodgers for integrating and implementing his style of play and his tactics so well in the Liverpool side. #WeTrustInBrendan Let’s win the league title this year.:) Plus, its the 25th anniversary of the Hillsborough disaster. #JFT96 Rest In Peace. #YNWA

Thirdly, the change of environment. To be honest, the environment in JH305 is kinda different from that in JH101 and JH201 even though there are a lot of one-ders in the class haha. But fitting in has been quite fun actually thus far and I think I’ve learnt some basketball stuff from the guys and all. Plus, it has also been quite a fun experience getting to know more people and bonding with them. Four years with these people haha.XD Guess it has been a pleasant experience so far in this class and I’m also quite happy that I’m in this class.

However, there is also that sense of missing the one-ders. The people, the environment, the bonds, everything. But to be honest, I’m really happy that we can still go out on class outings together and all even though not all of us may be from the same class. Guess that just shows how bonded we are haha.XD Plus, it was entertaining to go for the Haunted Houses and spend most of Funtasia with some of the oneders (plus Jolene haha.XD) But, even though we were supposed to be screaming and all, I really think that we actually laughed more in the Haunted Houses haha.XD Kaushik also joined along later haha. But to be honest, I really think I should man-up after all those experiences in the haunted houses haha. Guess its time to become more manlier! (haha JKJK)

But last, but not least, that change affected me. It changed everything about me. It showed me that things don't always end smoothly, don’t end up the way you want them to. But apart from all the negatives, it taught me one thing:

If there are no ups and only downs in something, stop doing it.
                                       
                                          AND

There’s always something positive about anything; Look on the bright side.