Motivation.

Life sucks. My life so far this year hasn't been spectacular, hasn't been fun, hasn't been anything. It's just like nothing happened since last year. But no, to be honest, many things have changed, both for the better and worse. Sometimes, its just hard to find motivation to go on, just hard to find motivation to just do the things that you love to do. Sometimes, its just so hard, to get down to do work for example, and even if I do, I feel that my 100% is not going into it at all. I just feel kind of robotic sometimes, where you just do things for the sake of it, with no feelings. The past just feels so much better, but I guess thinking about such stuff is not gonna help at all.

All our lives or at least my life, are like cactuses. One in a desert, deprived of water, but one that at the end of the day still manages to survive somehow. The water is like motivation in my case. Sometimes, there's no water at all, but you've got to keep going. You've got to keep pushing on, surviving. At some point in time, it may feel like you're not living life anymore, but just surviving through it, but that's just life. You've just got to get whatever you need or want from wherever you can and live with it. But sometimes, I just imagine that someone called me "weak" and that I couldn't make it. This really makes me feel knocked down. But, it just makes me feel a little "stronger". It makes me just stand back up, much taller than before. But sometimes, this is just simply not enough.

But there are other sources of motivation around like friends, my own self-motivation (which is very little) and my passion. To be honest, I owe quite a bit to my friends. They've made my journey to where I am very smooth and they are great pillars of support. They are always there for you and ready to lend a helping hand. Plus, they are also like family sometimes. But to not forget the family that I was born in, I think they have also given me a great deal of support. They are just so cheerful most of the time and life wouldn't also be the same without friends and them. I really appreciate being born into such a family where if one member is upset, the rest would notice immediately and try to cheer up that person. Something like what we do for each other as one-ders. These things keep me going. But not forgetting my passion, football. I think I'll make this part a little longer cos' I don't think I have talked about this before. Sometimes, things just seem better and its easier to forget about stuff, with a kick of the ball. It's like kicking your worries away and it really makes it easier to smile. It makes it easier to live life and enjoy yourself. Even though I'm not that good a football player, the joy that comes when you do a skill is just amazing. The feeling when the ball catches the net, when the ball goes in off the crossbar, is just sensational. Just doing all these without feeling any fatigue at all is remarkable and I'm really thankful for this beautiful game. It plays an important part in my life and without it, I really don't think I would have made it this far. It just makes you have a clear mind and be more positive. I love you, football.

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